Pregnant until proven otherwise!

Transfer complete! We had a rough start with my "hidden" uterus. Apparently, my uterus likes to play hide-and-seek on transfer days. It started out under my pelvic bone and therefore couldn't be seen on the u/s. Both doctors had the worst time finding it, but after much probing and emptying my bladder (yay!), they got the shot they needed to guide in the catheter, and everything went well!

We transferred 2 beautiful blasts (Picture to come)! They thawed three. The 3rd was iffy, but they were going to continue watching it and possibly refreeze. They gave us the option to transfer all 3, but I could tell the RE wasn't comfortable with that and neither were we. We opted to put in the 2 and pray that we just fell on the wrong side of the statistics last time!

I slept all afternoon yesterday and will spend the rest of the weekend on the couch. There is no gas to be found, so it's a great weekend to do nothing!

Thanks for continued prayers!

FET Eve!!

My transfer is tomorrow morning at 11:45. Yay! I'm very excited and hopeful. Not much else to say about that right now...check back tomorrow for an update and possibly a picture!

What's been happening in the Duke world:

Ashley Furniture closed & Jordan lost his job last Thursday. :( It wasn't a total surprise because the store has obviously not been paying their bills b/c delivery trucks have not been running for months. That meant no commission check for Jordan for the past 4 months. Now it means absolutely no check. Crud. On a happier note, he has an interview on Monday with Wells Fargo for a management position. Fingers crossed!

Mom did all of my PIO shots while J was in Vegas (and, by the way, he was very responsible and came back WITH money! Not a ton, don't get too excited.)!! I had him show her how it was done on Saturday morning before he left and basically gave her no choice. She was shaking the first time, and though she may not have enjoyed doing it, she did it every morning and night while Jordan was gone without a complaint. What a champ :)

Speaking of the PIO...It's not fair to be nauseous when there is a 200% chance that you are not pregnant!! I haven't had issues in the past, but the PIO is KILLING me this time. I can barely sit down, my butt is terribly bruised, I want to throw up constantly, and I'm exhausted. At least if I was pregnant with these as symptoms, I would have something to look forward to. Blah :(
I hope to stay sick...but for a good reason :) (Ok, I don't really hope to be sick, but you get the point!)

I'm off to bed. 'Til tomorrow...

Lining Check #2

Well, this morning was much better than Wednesday's check. Dr. L measured my lining 3 times and he got 9mm, 9mm, and 10mm, so he felt confident that it was thick enough! Yay! Pending the results of my bloodwork, transfer is scheduled for next Friday (time TBA!)! I am really excited and hopeful for this transfer. I don't know why, but I just feel better about this time.

J leaves for Vegas tomorrow with the boys, so I am stuck at home by myself until Wednesday afternoon. No biggie, right? Turns out, it is a "biggie" when he is the one who is supposed to give me my PIO shots twice a day starting in the morning. Mom (my first choice to sub for J) basically said, "No way, find someone else to do it." Thanks a bunch-it's your grandkids on the line here lady! I know some nurses who would be more than happy to help me out, but it is just so embarassing. I should not be pulling my pants down in front of my friend's mom-it's just not right :) Sigh...

Lining Check #1

I had my lining check this morning and they want to see it at 9mm in order to move on to PIO and the transfer. It's only at 6mm. Ugh. I have to put on 2 estrogen patches and go back Friday. Therefore, transfer won’t be until next Friday at the earliest.

Good news--J is going to Vegas with the boys Sat-Wed, so he would have missed the transfer had everything been good to go today. Blessing in disguise, maybe?

A Prayer for My IF Sisters

I do not have to know all the answers

God, You know everything but I don't. I face this situation with little knowledge of what is going to happen and what the future holds for me and for those I love. I confess to You that I am afraid, anxious, and perhaps even angry at my helplessness in this time. Please draw me close to You.

Help me to know that I do not have to know all the answers if I know You and am known by You. Give me patience with myself, with others involved in this matter, and grant me a sense of peace that You move in, through, and beyond all situations of this earth.

O God beyond time, help me to understand Your possibilities for life, healing, and restoration that I cannot even imagine because I am aware only of the now and You are aware of forever. Give quietness to this shaking heart and calmness in the midst of great fear.

Amen.

(Thanks mom. I love you :) )

And we're off!

Tentative Schedule for FET #2!

September 5-9 Estrace 1mg twice daily
September 10-13 Estrace 2mg twice daily
September 14-16 Estrace 2mg three times daily
September 17 Estradiol and progesterone levels drawn, u/s
If cleared : Progesterone injection 1cc in the am
Dexamethasone .5mg at bedtime
Doxycycline 100mg twice daily
Estrace 2mg three times daily
Prenatal vitamins and Baby Aspirin
September 18-23 Progesterone injection 1cc in the am and pm
All other meds stay the same
September 24 Egg Transfer!
Continue Estrace three times daily
Take the last Dexamethasone and Doxycycline
Progesterone injection 1cc in the am
Prometrium 200mg vaginally at bedtime
Continue prenatal vitamin and baby aspirin

Please say prayers, send vibes, do whatever you do... :)

Ahh...if we could only go back 3 years where I thought all it would take to make a baby was to have sex. Silly sex ed teachers--you left some things out!

Tag, You're It

I've been tagged by Stacey! http://myinfertileworldsm.blogspot.com/


The Rules:

1. Link to the person who tagged you
2. Post the rules to your blog
3. Write 6 random things about yourself
4. Tag 6 people at the end of your post and link to them
5. Let each person you have tagged know by leaving a comment on their blog
6. Let the tagger know when your entry is posted.


6 random things about myself:

1. J and I have lived in 4 houses (owned 3 & moved in with my parents for a few months) in our 3+ years of marriage...and we're talking about selling this house! We love change :)
2. I love TV. My DVR is on overload for the fall/winter season. See you in Spring ;)
3. I talk to my dogs like they are real people.
4. I am very OCD and organized. In high school, my clothes were in ABC order. Now, they are color coded & divided by season, type of clothing (pants, capris, dress, shirt, skirt, etc.) and sleeve/pant length!
5. If I could visit anywhere in the world, it would be Australia.
6. I have no idea what I want to be when I "grow up." It's a constant battle in my head!


Tag, You're It!

Kathy: http://bustedbabymaker.blogspot.com/
Rachel: http://maydaygirl.blogspot.com/, http://maydaygirl.wordpress.com/
Trina: http://look-at-the-birds.blogspot.com/
Jill: http://maybebabymomma.blogspot.com/
Gretchen: http://youraverageinfertilityblog.blogspot.com/
Jen: http://jenserenitynow.blogspot.com/

So, Dad...I need $2800...

After my first FET failed, I was so upset/stressed. My parents had paid for that cycle, and although I am incredibly thankful, I hated that it was $2800 of their money that basically got flushed down the toilet. As soon as we found out the test was negative, I started calculating when we could have (a spare) $2800 by. My answer--not anytime soon :(. I was very stressed and dad kept saying, "You don't need to worry about it. It will be taken care of. You can't worry about it." So, finally I accepted that we can't do this on our own and my parents are willing to help out. As much as I hate the idea of this failing again, and my parents being out that much more money, I happily accept the charity. (Who wouldn't?) It is awkward to bring it up though.

Here's how my convo went with dad this morning:

Me: Hey dad! Watcha working on?
Dad: Nothing really, what's up?
Me: I started my medicine this morning! I just wanted to make sure everything was good to go.
Dad: Oh, good! It isn't going to conflict with the Denver trip?
Me: No, I'll be fine. But I don't want to get too far in if there is going to be a problem. I mean. Well...I need the money.
Dad: Oh yeah. Crap. When? Today?
Me: No, not today, but before the transfer. So, in the next week or 2.
Dad: Ask your mom. Tell her I'm paying the taxes.

(haha. I love my dad)

So, MOM...I need $2800...

Slacker

I've been slack in my blogging. Honestly, I've had nothing to write about. I figured it would get pretty boring to write "Waiting for AF" everyday!

That being said, looks like AF is almost here! Today or tomorrow should be day 1. Yay! I'm so tired of waiting and waiting for yet another month to pass by. FET #2 (or as I like to call it: THE 1!) will be here before we know it! Last time AF was 2 weeks late. I was preparing myself for the wait. I actually would prefer the wait b/c of my travel schedule this month. But no, this time, I'm going to start 3 days early. What a pain. I have finally realized that my "before BCP/IF oh-so-predictable body" will never be the same. Oh well. What can I do?

I spent the holiday weekend at the beach with 7 other lovely ladies for my BFF's bachelorette party. We had such a great time. We laughed and just got to know each better. I was really surprised, but we had no drama--with 8 girls in a 2 bedroom condo with 1 bathroom. Impressive, huh? :) It was just great to get out of town for a few days and not think about anything other than, "what am I going to wear tonight?"! And of course, we hit the outlets on the way home. Fun!

I'm also excited to say that I am going to be an aunt! J's younger brother and his wife are expecting their first in January. Unfortunately, I was not very excited when I first found out (Have I mentioned that I hate IF?), but I had to get over my selfishness, and now I really can't wait! They are thinking it is a girl after the u/s last week, but are not positive. Either way, I'm ready to start buying baby stuff! I'm praying their baby will have a cousin to play with in June ;)