Being a Mom

You know, this whole being a mom thing--It's not easy. I love every.single.second of it, but it's not easy! I think back to when people told me, "It will change your world." And I replied so matter of factly, "I know it will." But I didn't. Well, not in the sense that it has truly changed my world!

I honestly thought, "how hard could it be?" For the first few months all they do is eat, sleep, poop, and lay in one spot, right? I'll be able to clean the house, do the laundry, and, of course, play with him too. RIGHT?! Wow, could I have been any more clueless? Thankfully, Hampton is on a pretty good routine, but that doesn't mean it's going to be easy. Today he loves his playmat. Tomorrow, who knows? The jumperoo? He's having a blast in it as I type. Last night, he would have nothing to do with it! It's a constant"guess and check" system to see what toy he has any desire to play with at that point in time. Funny boy!

My OCD-planning-self has had to take a time out for right now. I can plan all day long, but there is no guarantee that I will be where I say I'm going to be at the time I say I'm going to be there! And I don't really care. I go with the flow, and boy does it make life so much less stressful.

As far as the cleaning of the house, I do what I can when I can. Jordan laughs as I go into over-drive once I put the baby down for the night. Last night, I managed to fold and put away a load of laundry, wash a load of laundry and put it in the dryer, load the dishwasher, wash bottles, wipe down the kitchen, clean Hampton's bath tub, take out the trash, put away toys, and pack the diaper bag for today before collapsing in the bed at 11. It doesn't seem like much, until you know that the little monkey didn't go to sleep until after 10! (Only to wake up at 4. No fun! Poor little guy has a cold. Again.)

All this to say, it really has changed my life. I still don't know when we'll have any real schedule. Or if my house will ever be clean again. But I don't care. I LOVE it. I love, love, LOVE my baby boy, but I also just love being a mom. I was meant to be one, and I'm so happy we didn't give up.