Monday, February 1, 2010

Never say "Never"

My current situation is a pretty good deal. I work (go into the office) about 3 days a week. Hampton comes with me 2 out of 3, and he stays home with Jordan the other day. It works, since I have to do something to bring in a paycheck. But oh how I long to be able to be at home every single day with this baby. We have a good routine on my days off. We have different activities around the house that we can do. It's not the same at the office. Yes, I am with him, but I think of what needs to be done at the house and how nice it would be to go for a walk with the little guy (obviously on not so frigid days!). Nap time on days "off" is a stressful time. I cram as much as I possibly can into that time because I know that I won't have the time to do it the next day. My house would be an absolute wreck if I was working full time, no doubt! But the biggest thing is I hate that I can't give my baby my undivided attention full time.

I've always said that I had no desire to be a stay at home mom. I could "never" do it! I would be bored. I would want to go out and spend money that I didn't have. I would need that time away from my child/children.

I was wrong.

1 comment:

Rachel said...

it is true in life, we just should never say never... I've learned that lesson many times over!

But the truth is, you MIGHT still feel those ways if you did SAH full time, even if you WANT to be a sahm.

I sometimes feel that way (not wanting to be away from B, but sometimes bored and lonely etc) even though I am so grateful I SAH.

I was recently thinking I should get a part time job just to get out! lol... but for a million reasons I decided against it.

The grass is always greener...